Post-Op Meltdowns

I should start this post by saying that before surgery they do tell you that there will be hair loss. They do not tell you that it could be a lot, a lot, a lot of hair. So there is that. They also don't tell you that if you have some vitamin deficiencies then you could develop skin discoloration. In my case I am the only one that really notices it but it's like having a giant pimple on my nose. They also don't tell you that you will wake up one day and see yourself in a whole new light. You don't. You look in the mirror and see the same person. Seriously. The only time I see the weight loss is when I put on a smaller item of clothing. So combine those three things with a really, really bad several weeks at work and that spells recipe for a Major Meltdown!

 

So today I took the bus to work. It's cheaper and I don't have to deal with traffic. On my way home I was feeling stressed. I was feeling self conscious. I was feeling really tired (oh I have no voice that added to it too). I went to fix my ponytail and pulled out a huge was of hair. Enough to give a doll a wig. I cried. I am not vain, but I have been trying to grow my hair out for a really long time to donate it. So I cried, saw the salon, went in and asked them to chop my hair.

 

I have to say that for me it was like chopping off all of my past. I have a long way to go with my weight loss, but cutting off my hair felt like cutting off the 70lbs of emotions I have been carrying around with me for years. I have had haircuts before, but this one felt different. I feel better and more confident. I need to give a shout out to Utopia Hair Salon in Liverpool because they are amazing. I don' remember my stylists name, but she has my info so I will see her again.

 

And finally....

 

 



August Birchbox

I got my August Birchbox.

 

I am going to start with what I love. Also I got a new phone and I haven't quite figured out how to use it. Anyway lets get this started.

 

 

 

I loved that it was addressed to me as Magnificent Melissa. It was a nice pick me up to the bad day I had.

 

 

This Hello Breath spray was my most favorite thing. After surgery my doc told me no breath mints or chewing gum. What do you use then if you have a really stinky meal? I didn't even know that there were still companies making breath spray. To me it tasted so good and it was not strong. I feel like it really worked. I actually put my name on the wait list on Birchbox's website.

 

Okay everything else that to me was not worth the money this month.

 

I actually liked the scent of this Harvey Prince Ageless Perfume, but I don't really want to wear it because I don't want to fall more in love with it. I really am more of a body spray girl mainly due to the price factor. I think if I wear it too much more I will fall in love and then spend money I don't have, that actually I do have but should spend on other things especially since I already have way more scents than I need.

I did not try this facial scrub. I am actually going to give it to a friend from work. I already have a facial scrub that I really like that I already got from Birchbox. So I decided to save this product for my friend.

I have fallen in love with eyeliner recently. I was excited to get eyeliner, but they did say it was black and it wasn't that dark so that actually was a disappointment and I had to go over it with something so it wouldn't rub off.

This is shaving cream and it smells like vomit. It says acai and grapefruit but they lied. It is really vomit. I used it and now I smell like vomit.

 

This was a disappointing box for me except for the breath spray. I am still going to keep ordering though because I think they get to have a break on a bad box. I know other people who actually got really good boxes so I think that every once in awhile there has to be a bad box. The eyeliner alone covered the cost of the box as it is a $15 eyeliner.

 

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My Tooshie Hurts

My tooshie hurts. I am pretty sure it is from my hike yesterday. If that is why then I want to do it more. My tooshie could use a lift.

What You Get To Do

There are lots of things you get to do when you lose weight. Here is the List

1. You get to go bra shopping. You get to do this even if you don't lose weight, but it is a thrill when you get to buy a new one that is smaller. I went to Soma yesterday and bought a new bra. I am going to return it because it might just be me, but I cannot stand underwire. The sales girl told me it is because I probably haven't been wearing the correct. So I listened to her and bought it. It's not because I wasn't wearing the right size. It's because I have a really short torso and the wire sits funny on me. So It was a success/failure.

 

2. You get to go hiking. Again you can do this without losing weight, but I would not have been able to do this without losing weight. 60lbs ago I could barely walk up a flight a stairs let alone hike for an hour and a half.

 

3. You can post selfies to dating websites with confidence. Again you probably don't need to lose weight to do this, but I needed to. I wouldn't have had the confidence. I still don't have a ton, but I am getting there. I figure I need to start stepping outside of my comfort zone.

 

There are a lot more things you can do, but these are just three from this week. More to come.

 

"One"derland

One of my all time favorite shows on television is The Biggest Loser. I used to love it as motivation when I was at the gym.  One of their sayings for when someone went under 200lbs was "one"derland. Well last week I achieved that.

I am embarrassed to say that I let myself get so heavy that I would be so excited to be in the 100's. I made a lot of stupid choices with my health. It's not that I didn't have control its that I felt that was my only control for a really long time. Know I am taking control in a different way. I really love feeling so much better. I love that I am sleeping better at night. I love that I don't feel as self conscious. I love that this is only the beginning.

One of the things I learned when I did weight watchers was to lift something that weighs the amount of weight you lost to help put it into perspective. I have been doing this and it is hard to find something that is 58lbs but I did go to the store and hold two twenty pound bags of potatoes. I was shocked at just the 40lbs of weight. I can't believe I was carrying that extra weight.

I know I still have a long way to go, but I am feeling more motivated. I am feeling proud, excited and so many other emotions. I am just so happy.

2 Months Post Op

So I am a few days late on this post but I am so excited to state that I have lost 52 lbs! I am so close to "onederland". I cannot wait. I feel so much better. I am off of my blood pressure medication. That is exciting all on it's own. I also feel like I have enough energy to start working out. So I went to the local gym today and signed up. I also signed up to meet with a personal trainer. His name is Mark. I have actually worked with him before. He used to be at another gym I worked out at and for some reason he left. I was sad when he did. So I tracked him down and found him at this other gym. So I start tomorrow. I am so excited. I want to keep losing this weight and looking good. So excited!

Birchbox July 2014 (and poop).

Yay I got my Birchbox for July! I love Birchbox. They deliver every month for $10 and it is totally worth the $10. They deliver all different kinds of beauty products and health products. So here is a review of my box.

The Box

 

 

As you can see this month they teamed up with Women's Health. I forgot to take a picture because I already mailed it but this month you can get a 1 year subscription for free to their magazine. Yay! Worth the subscription because it is valued at $9.99

 

The Description Card

 

 

I should mention I am not the greatest photographer. I took these with my cell camera. I am way too cheap to buy one. I love the card because it tells you what it is, the full size price and how to use it. I find it helpful in deciding if I want to purchase more of a product.

 

The Likes

 

 

Cynthia Rowley Silver Eyeliner: I love this. I didn't think I would like it because it is silver. I am an all black girl. It was nice to step out of my comfort zone. The only complaint I had is when I tried to take it off it was a little difficult. I used makeup remover but it just stayed. I had to scrub. This is also a good thing because it means that it will stay on and not melt away like some eyeliner does.

 

 

Harvey Prince Hello Body Cream: Another product I loved. It smells so good. I am thinking I will be buying a full size of this. It is smooth and not at all oily. I hate when lotion is oily.

 

 

Number 4 Super Comb Prep and Protect: This is a leave in conditioner. Right now because I am post WLS I am having a hard time keeping my hair from drying out. I liked this because it helped my hair feel smoother and less dry. I liked it.

 

The Not Really Disliked but Not Liked

 

 

Supergoop CC Cream: I have heard a lot of great things about this product. However when I opened it I thought it smelled really gross so I didn't test it out. I didn't want to put something on my face that I would have to smell all day.

 

The box also included some gummie multivitamins. I didn't take a picture or try them because my doctor advises against gummy vitamins post WLS. For a while anyway and I am only two months out so I didn't want to try them.

 

I have to say I liked this box too and I do think it is worth the money. I was worried that I would have a great first box and that it would go downhill from there. So far so good and I do recommend it.

 

Okay on to poop. I have finally been allowed to eat meat again. I don't know if it is because of all the protein but I have been constipated since Sunday. Well today I pooped. It was a great feeling. I know TMI but trust me when you have gone that long with out pooping it can become uncomfortable and when you aren't constipated anymore you want to dance.